L...O....S....T

There are some days that for some reason I really feel lost. It's like I'm homesick. One friend relates it as not being one with your universe.  This is almost true! Remember that feeling you used to get when you would spend the night with a friend, and you really missed your mom? I still get that feeling. I just want to go home. I'm sure it's that wonderful thing that runs in our family...... depression. 

When it hits, I just want to be at home in my normal and comfortable surroundings. Just like a security blanket.  I want to wrap myself up in that security blanket and forget about all the worries this world brings.  Now everyone knows that it's not that easy. Our lives still have to be lived.  Work still needs something, kids are pulling at your shirt tale, dinner needs to be made, homework needs to be done.....it's part of life. 

It's often funny how you can walk around somewhere that should be normal and comfortable and feel so out of place.  I know that kids feel this way a lot, with how judge-mental their peers are and the kind of life they are suppose to "uphold". I see faces, hear my name and familiar voices and still I'm not comforted.
Finding that one thing that will get you through is the key.  Sometimes it could be just to step outside and feel the wind on your face, see the beautiful sun shining. For some, it could be a hug, from your spouse or just a good friend.  Hearing "MOMMY" as you walk in the door and to have to little pitter patter feet running toward you will most likely do it every time. Many times I try to remind myself of how wonderful life is, and how good God has blessed me.  Even when I have trouble seeing it myself.... I know he has. So, sometimes I have to take a step back and ponder on the finer things in life. 

When the LOST feeling hits, sometimes I just want my blankie. I want to wrap myself up in its warmth and let it sweep all my troubles away.  It's comforting to at least know there is one place where you can feel that way.... HOME.